There but for the Grace of God!

Wednesday, June 18

Awoke to telephone call from SNF this am|: PC struggling to breathe and 911 called, he was already in transistor to Morton Plant Hospital.  By time I go there, less than20 minutes after I got the call, he  was being monitored, on 13 liter flow of oxygen through full face mask, chest X-ray being done, labs drawn.  Their immediate response was wonderful.  Met with his doctor, said he was very fragile and they were being as careful as possible.  Positive labs for pneumonia.

So, as sun sets on this rainy day, he is stable, oxygen level still very about 12 liters, usually was at about 2.5 to 3,  diagnosis pneumonia and some unusual heart enzymes..not typical of heart attack..being followed.  His skin is fragile and doctor ordered a pic (spelling) line/port into his right shoulder into this chest, so need for trying to draw blood in veins they can not find easily without causing pain.

I was present, holding his left arm, and using meditative force to push wire into his body, since team was struggling to get it into his body. The wire/lead kept moving up to his carotid,,asked RN if I could try, thought he would freak out, but had to remove right glove, but used heat of love and my fingers to have it (the thin wire) move down, down...it worked!

Of course, I was visualizing, not actually touching inside his body...symbolically of course...sterile draping everywhere...good team, professional and handled his anxiety well.     RN said "I do not know how you did that, but it worked, next attempt would have been him unconscious and surgery to implant."

Amazing, I learned and practice many forms of meditation for years.  Always grateful for meditative methods learned and practiced many years ago, if only I could make everything work...

    NO, do not want that much!
If constantly,, too much, to want that, now I am really totally exhausted, takes a lot of love, stress and mental strength with intense concentration, which I have not practiced in many years.

As I left, to return with additional documents from recent VA admission, thank you GOD for having me to that big application last week, I was able to get it quickly and return to hospital.  Now they can compare the heart and lung function for last few months.

I am home, showered and already in bed, about to go to sleep...Feisty is curled up on my legs.   Really did me in today!

Pieces that seem to merely be strange, unworkable, not connected, and of not significance, can and do come in handy when needed. My soul sings with peace and exhaustion.

Thank you Grammy Martin for helping myself and my spirit, and my mom for her encouragement to learn any and everything I was ever curious about, however to always stay of the good, GOD.

Peace with lots of scrappy pieces!  Mac