Monday, June 2, 2014.  Day 7928

Well, it is just past midnight and I am awake,  so much spinning in my brain tonight.  I did a long meditation..travel to beautiful San Francisco Bay and watching the cars in the Golden Gate Brisge and the people walking the nearby park.  Ok, before you think I have really lost it, I practice a type of meditation focusing of beautiful and familiar places of peace and tranquility.  Actually fell asleep for awhile, thus my being awake now.

Have a long honest, I think, conversation with a person of great import to my PC.  Amazing  how two people can have such a difference of perceptions of the same event and situations.  I pray that tonight helped with some emotional healing and feeling of mutual acceptance.  Trust is not easy for me, especially in stressful situations, but I am trying to change!

Was blessed to have girlfriends come over Saturday night, one even spent the night, and all today. Another wanted to, but I felt like I needed to be alone with my meditation.  Another  went with me to see PC in hospital, which was a blessing.

Amazing, I like to help others, but somehow think I am supposed to be strong enough to handle things alone...from mom?, grandmother (Nannie), life experiences?  Too much education?  Anyway, it just does not work anymore and I am so blessed to have people who will come and just be with me.  Even had an excellent dinner left in my front porch, just because.

I was so touched, I cried..which helped..been doing this  a lot of that last few days,  so sad, but not feeling as lonely..Thank you God.

Sunday also brought lots of emails, just girl stuff and made me feel so connected to my community,.  Loved them!  Thank you so much.

Abit nervous for tomorrow, but know that GOD is in control and if He can care for a sparrow, I definitely know HE will care and take care of me!

No piecing today, no scraps.  But got some actually thrown out!  Garage starting to look better!

Peace with no piecing today. Mac

PS:  if not a quilter.  To un sew means to remove stitches, generally with a seam ripper.   HSTs are half square triangles, which produces horrid bias seams, my least favorite!


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