Bobbin empty, got to rewind!

Monday, June 23,  2013

Sadly the path has become more twisted..biased and crooked.  Then again, as a scrappy quilter, it merely presents a new  unique challenge ...I think!

PC breathing and fluid in lungs building up.  I, after discussing with PC,  Hospice nurse, who came for a visit, and social workers..both MP and Hospice.. listened to the opinions.  One option is to suction the fluid, however once started it must be repeated..PC said, and repeated to me his understanding of what this means. And does not want this option.

Then PCP came and spoke honestly and directly to PC, told him if unwilling to get up, to sit up or try physical therapy then it will only get worst.  PC repeated he is tired of fighting and just weary, ready.

PCP spoke to me in hallway, and I have 24 hours to decide if we go with care and comfort medications only.  Looks like no discharge today.  And hope for any improvement rapidly disappearing down the scrap bin, crumb bucket,  circular file.

Pulmonary hospitalist next visited, and said lots of fluid in his lungs.. blah, blah, blah...

PC spoke to me. And apologized for not being able to try anymore.  Told him, without him seeing me crying, that I did and would always understand. And.  Would love him for all eternity and beyond.  Seemed to help him, and he fell peacefully asleep now doing my selfish writing.

May pieces either work together or .....

Peace, that omnipresent force is offering crumbs, strips and bits to put together.  Pray for guidance!

Mac