Assembly and details to follow day 7954

Sunday, June 29, 2014

On yesterday, June 28,  PC transitioned peacefully to rest in the care and loving arms of his God and his faith surrounding him.

Now, without clear directions written, only guided by faith, friends and my community, I have entered an new world, trying to piece together the complications and challenges of merging pieces with wishes, pieces with bias,  pieces with history than needs honoring, and most importantly peace with God and the wishes of my charming prince.

Through the help of the SunCoast Hospice. was able to obtain the last rights service from a
Russian Orthodox Church.  Father Igor  came, and conducted, in Russian, the mass for the departing.
It was beautiful, even as I stood, appropriately dressed in long skirt out of deep respect for their tradition  and prayed for PC's peace. During the service, the ceremony, ritual robes, an associated miscellaneous ritual items, PC was peaceful.  He appeared to relax and his face return to a calm stance, appeared with no pain.

Fr Igor was most gracious, and kind, even knowing I am Eposcopalian,  said belief is important, and that there is only one God, practice what you believe and be true to it.  Parted with offer to help me in coming weeks, months, or years if ever I needed.  So kind!  Nothing like I have witnessed before!

Afterwards things appeared to be a blur for me, sorry.  His rapid decline was peaceful and calm.  My friend came to stay with me, at Hospice, a promise she made Nick and I over seven years ago, while my little sis, DB, took the responsibility to caring for Diva Feisty.

 Although this may not seem important, Feisty represents the love and companionship of my present life, and her dedication to PC was witnessed by all as she would sit by him hours after hour trying to make him better.

I have been a nervous wreck, and would not have expected  this.  I was told, repeatedly the last nine plus years, that PC would pass, guess I got so used to it, did not really believe it in my mind, only my soul.  Felt it happening, as two of my friends were with me here at the house, had unbelievable feeling of separation, like something was pulling, slowly away, around 11:00 pm.

We had planned to back that night.  Called PC's nurse and he said all was well at 11, , told him of my feeling and said he would keep my informed...well, he called about 7 minutes to 12 and said best to come back.

Got dress and headed out,  friend drove, since I was not able, shaking and chest bone throbbing...not heart located, in center.  Got there in record time, 30 minutes, and walked into his room.  All leaned over to kiss him and could not feel a pulse, my chest  immediately stopped throbbing, then I thought I must be mistaken , so had friend feel his other arm while I checked carotid in neck, nothing, only the flow of oxygen and the feel of his pacemaker running.  She went to get CNA and RN..he had passed into heaven!

Rest in peace Prince Charming.  I do and shall always love and respect you.  you are one in a trillion, a man with the kindest heart and spirit I have ever known.  You overcame so much in your life, and was able to smile, an infectious smile that shone like a light for all to see the real you, not the pain stricken, PTSD effected, COPA, CHF and arthritis ridden physical body.

I shall always love my Prince Charming, and always be your Cinderella.

Brother arrived tonight, so now details can be worked out.  I needed family help, so thankful he volunteered.  What a great southern gentlemen toss practical, logical and loving!  The true deal,  love you, bro.

Will let all you are interested know on arrangements.

Mac












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