In Old Key West, listening to happy children and families in the pool right beneath my window. What a wonderful sight and sounds. And so grateful that these are NOT my children, and NOT my problem. Saw one leap backwards into the pool, depth only 5' 7" with father encouraging him? Whew, all survived, so think I should finally take the time to update this blog.
Lots has happened, and yet it seems like nothing of relevance transpires. Did Albert Einstein truly understand the movement of time, and how we travel through time and space and it unfolds around us, through us, and within us? Amazing late night pondering.
Been on a healing quest, in search of me, a break from always being responsible and positive. Today I even got upset....yep, but not shouting!!!! As I say laughingly.
First to Houston:. To spend some needed time with my family, and also had the opportunity to celebrate with same at an amazing party for my mothers 90th birthday! She was so happy and. Y sister in law Pat did such a spectacular party, with all mom's friends invites, elegant decor, Kosher cake, pianist, servers for each table, etc. What a special day for a very special lady.
As you may or may not know, my mom is my role model. She has overcome so much, and still smiles, always finds the silver lining in any challenge that comes her way! She is the one responsible for my ability to see only what I wish to see, to believe I. The goodness of others, and when such persons may harm you, just honestly bless them, hold your head up..but walk away with dignity and peace....whew, really hard to actually accomplish, but an ideal?
Then on a long cruse, somewhere in the Caribbean. I never left the ship, however treated myself to a balcony suite, and sat for many hours and meditated, rested, slept, and repeated until we docked again in Galveston, TX. Had many hours to spend in reflection, and started my bucket list of "What I do NOT wish to do!"
Had a private memorial for PC in his thirtieth day...and I felt the clouds start to lift. Took a picture, and it now leads my path. Beautiful blue sky in coming from the left...remember I am left handed...and the rolling dark clouds starting to ascend into further heavens...and an amazing question mark, swirl, etc visible exactly in front of my view! Not a photographer, but this was for me the most inspiring and uplifting I have felt in a long long time.
Back to Houston, and spent quality time with my mom, my brother, my sister in law, my nephews and their wives and most especially my new great nephew Felix. He is the most amazing baby I have ever seen...of course, with the exception of my own son, so son, do NOT get excited, I still think you are the best!
Then home, Still attending to details, challenges with banking and flexibility, but somehow it is working. Still trying to sort out paperwork, how does it grow so fast? Even as I sort and shred? Think it is multiplying at night,
On a more serious note, as if financial realities are not serious enough, the memorial plaque is in place now for PC, labeled per his wishes with the Russian Orthodox cross, the word "GRAMPY" and a dove in flight. Sad for the reality, however it looks as he wishes.
I miss him so, but rest easier knowing now his quest in over and he rests in peace with. heavens bounds, without pain he endured.
Now off again, to return next week. I suppose. This is another period of reflection and retracing where I might have placed my happier nature. It does seem to be working.
Had several good girl friends come and stay with me in this resort, to recharge myself and thank them for all they did to help PC and me during the most difficult period of my life. Without their help, as well as the intervention of my brother I do not think I would be as hopeful and determined as I am today. t
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